Getting it All Out

[Luke Jackson]

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Jules Jackson: You know that you have to do this Luke.  

Jules Jackson walked up to her husband as he sat in a waiting room. Luke looked up her and nodded his head.  

Luke Jackson: I know babe. It is just hard for me to get it out you know? 

She sits next to him and rubs his shoulders as he leans back and looks up at the ceiling. 

Jules Jackson: I know. Hell, you never really tell me anything about your mother. When I went down and saw you when she showed up you kind of passed it off.  

Luke Jackson: It’s just easier for me to pass it off. She really isn’t worth the aggravation.  

Jules Jackson: I know she isn’t. But sometimes if you talk about it, it will get better. Even if it doesn’t seem like it.  

He smiles and kisses her and looks back down at the floor when the door opens. The receptionist steps out and grabs Luke. He stops and kisses his wife one more time. He is led into a room, there is a big oak desk in the front of the room. Behind the desk is a huge black chair, and in front of the desk are two little chairs. Luke looks at them and he sits in the one on the right. He takes a deep breath as the chair behind the desk turns. Now in front of him is a man that is in his fifties. He has glasses that were on top of his head, he quickly puts them down as he grabs papers that were situated in front of them. He takes a quick glance up and put his right hand out. 

Doctor Rice: Hello, Mr. Jackson my name is Doctor William Rice. I’ve read your file and there are some things we seem like we need to talk about. 

Luke nods his head and shakes the hand of Doctor Rice.  

Luke Jackson: You can call me Luke. I know that we need to talk about some things and it is going to be hard for me because I don’t really open up.  

Doctor Rice: That is what I am here for. Now, I see that you wrestle why did you get into that? 

Luke smiles and leans back into the chair.  

Luke Jackson: Well, I always enjoyed wrestling. I grew up watching and I fell in love with it and I always wanted to do it. My dad wasn’t really into it and he was kind of against it. That didn’t stop me though because I felt that I needed to do it. I was never someone that had a lot of friends and I felt that getting into that ring and having the fans cheer me it would make me feel good about myself.  

Doctor Rice: What was the biggest problem you had with wrestling? 

Luke Jackson: I think hiding the fact that I started it from my dad. It took me about a year to finally tell him that I was doing it. What surprised me out of that though was when I told him he was actually okay with it. He knew that even if he said no I would find a way to keep on doing it.  

He smiles and tears started to well up in his eyes. The truth of the matter was that he missed his father every day. He wish he could go back to the hospital and do something make his dad feel better. He wanted to go back to the day that he married Jules and the smile that had crept on his dads face. He closed his eyes for a second and looked back as Doctor Rice nodded his head.  

Doctor Rice: You miss him don’t you? 

Luke Jackson: Of course. I mean wouldn’t you miss your dad if he died? Dude, it is human nature to miss the ones that you love. There doesn’t go a day where I don’t think about him and wish that I could see him again. Though I feel throughout this ordeal I feel like I have become stronger. It sounds stupid but I feel him from time to time. Although I can’t see him I feel him.  

The Doctor nods his head and looks down at his papers.  

Doctor Rice: What about your mother? 

Luke stops and shakes his head.   

Luke Jackson: I knew that this question would come. I dislike her, she ran out on my family when I was younger and she never reached out to my sister and I until my father passed. When I saw her in Florida I knew it wasn’t to get to know me or anything. She just wanted to be a part of my life and get money or something. It left a bad taste in my mouth and I just couldn’t deal with it. So she came and I told her to get out of my life. But man every other day it seems like a number calls me that I know is hers and I just can’t let it happen. It just hurts me.  

Doctor Rice: I can see that but sometimes you have to let people like her in your life. You need to let the past be the past. If you talk to her it might make you even stronger.  

Luke nodded but then quickly shook his head. 

Luke Jackson: I just can’t do that doctor. Not right now. I’m just not ready for it. I have a lot of other things going on and I just feel like she will mess that up. 

Doctor Rice: Fair point. Anyways Luke time is up for now. I want you to come back every other week. We need to open this up a little bit more.  

Luke got up and shook the hand of the doctor. He walked out back to the waiting room and grabbed Jules.  

Jules Jackson: How’d it go? 

Luke Jackson: Alright, I have to come back every other week.  

Jules Jackson: Well that is good, like I said you need this.  

She grabs his hand and kisses him as they walked out of the doctor’s office. 

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Luke Jackson sat in the gyms locker room. He shook his head as he grabbed a towel and put it around his neck. He grabbed both ends of the towel hard. His knuckles turned white as he shook his head once more and closed his eyes.  

Luke Jackson: I wish to all hell man that I could be sitting here with my half of the tag team titles. But at All-Star Showdown V I lost them. It wasn’t Rickys fault, it was all mine. I simply wasn’t good enough and Status Quo got what they were working so hard for. Going through the Dynamic Duos tournament one by one and then facing us and taking us out. They deserved the titles and I am not sitting here saying that because I wasn’t good enough is why we lost. No Status Quo was just that much better. Now I sit here without my title but I know that sooner rather than later I will get back to that goal. 

He smiles as he looks at the camera and shakes his head.  

Luke Jackson: I get it now man people are going to look at Ricky and I and see this bump in the road and say that this is the time that he and I are going to butt heads. See though, that shit isn’t going to happen he and I have felt that greatness of gold and we are going to want to get back to that. That is our goal now it is to face every team that is put in front of us and beat them. If we fall again we will get back up because we want that gold back. We both know how great of a team we are. He and I feel that we are one of the best teams in the world. All we have to do is go out and prove it. We have to lay everything out on the line and look at every match like it is our last one. This is our chance to keep on going and get back wins and get back our tag team titles. The Next Level isn’t done not by a long shot. I promise you. 

He gets up and starts to walk around the locker room. He has a smile on his face as he turns back around and looks at the camera.  

Luke Jackson: As for the match this week against Johnny Cannon and Danny Diamond we know that we have our work cut out for us. I’m not going to lie when I first saw this match I was put into a little bit of discomfort because I know what the challenge is. I also know that I need to have a good match, and I know that I always say that man but it is because it rings true. I want to be something I don’t want to keep on being this laughing stock that I know that I have become. It has been that since day one here and I am sick of it. 

He reaches over and punches one of the lockers. It makes a loud sound and he looks at his knuckle and nods his head. Blood started to come out of it but he quickly dabbed the towel on it and took the blood off.  

Luke Jackson: I know maybe part of that is my fault because I come out here and I whine and I go on twitter and I wonder if I am good enough to be here in the FGA. With that I know that my attitude has to change and it will. 

Winning those tag titles was a huge moment for me and everyone knows it and now that I tasted that gold I want that taste back and man I get Ricky and I have to start at the bottom again and work our way back up to where we were. I know that it is going to take a lot of work and I plan on working hard and the first step like I said starts this week against two men that are so into themselves that it kind of sickens me.  

That is the biggest problem that I have with wrestlers like Cannon and Diamond. They come out there or well in the case of Diamond he has Quinn Goodrich come out and they talk about how GOOD they are. And I get it you want to have a good profile you want to have people look at you and wonder is this going to be the night that you do something amazing. Is this the night that you become a household name. But also with that cockiness man there comes a time when you realize that you aren’t as good as you say you are. What happens when you start to take losses over and over again? People are not going to buy into you anymore and where does that bring you? It brings you back to the bottom and how are you going to talk yourself out of that? See, talking only gets you so far you have to have talent to back that up. Look man I know that they are both talented because they wouldn’t be here if they weren’t but by talking themselves up they are only going to be a letdown in some cases.  

Look at Diamond, he knows that he is handsome, talented, and fearless. He holds on to those with pride and well man isn’t that kind of egotistical? Granted, maybe that is how he wants to be but I find it kind of funny because we all say that. We all feel that we are handsome and talented I guess just some of us like to throw it out there and really back it up. But what happens when you start to lose that talent, when you start to get older and you start to become ugly? See those things go away and you might love talking about them but sooner or later they will go and people will start to see you as a fraud. Is Diamond a fraud now? No. If I put that little bit of doubt into his head though he will start to see that he is not as good as he claims to be. I will try and prove that he is just like all of the other people in this business. But hey, if he feels like he needs to say that, if he feels that he needs to pump himself up to have people watch him then go ahead he can do it. But sooner or later he is going to be knocked down a peg. 

Now we have his partner in Cannon, and well he seems like the same person as Diamond. Although Cannon doesn’t really do the talking he has his manager do it, so he has found someone that buys into what he says. But with that he has someone that he can disappoint if he starts to lose. That has to hang over his head in some instances right? What if Quinn got sick of him and sacked him because he couldn’t win? 

Granted I know that he is the World Champion right now and nothing can take that away from him. With this it gives Ricky and I a huge opportunity. If we beat the World Champion in a tag team match we will be talked about, we will be the ones that took him down and people will start to wonder about is his title reign going to be that great or is it going to be a letdown. Of course now he will talk about how good he is and talk about how he is never going to let that title go. But sometimes a win comes out of nowhere. That is what I am looking at in this match. I will give my best shot to knock the World Champion down. If I knock him down then I will be looked at as someone that took the fight to him and maybe not be that laughing stock anymore. I need that change I need to become something and I know I will be tested here. But all underdogs are tested and sometimes we win. 

He smiles as he walks past the camera and out of the gym.