What is Life?

[Keegan Hightower]

“What is life?  

That’s kind of a funny question that I have been asking myself as of late. As I sat there in the hospital room watching my dad slowly wither away from the cancer that was eating his body away it sucked. There are no bones about that but it also made me start to question myself and what I was doing with my life and whom I was with. When I asked Jules to marry me it was to keep her with me for the rest of my life. Her and I had talked about it before and we always said we didn’t need a piece of paper to show people that we loved each other and all of that. But when she was there with me and my father and she brought up the fact that we needed to get married soon if my father was going to see it I knew we had too. Seeing the smile on his face was amazing that day I wanted to take a picture of that face so I could hold on to it for the rest of my life and look back at that day. Luckily I have the mental image and that will have to do.  

I didn’t think that someone as strong as my dad would die. He did though and that is something I have to live with. All of the moments I have with him are in my head and I know what I need to do. I need to make him proud and how do I do that? I go out there to that ring even if he didn’t like me wrestling and do it with a passion. Do it with a flair and make people remember me. That is what I want most and that is what I will do because well it is what I need to do. I need to make people look at me and talk about me like I actually mean something. I’m fighting for my dad now and people can call that cliché and all of that. Go ahead let them say that because I know what I am fighting for.  

As for Larissa I am not sure what is going to happen with her. She was closer with my dad and it hurts me that I wasn’t there but I was looking at my career and trying to make it that much better so I had to travel and I had to find the best gym the best trainer that I could even if that meant leaving California. I feel bad for Larissa she thought she had found the right guy for her someone that treated her well. Someone that made her smile and laugh and feel good about herself (even more then she normally would). She deserves to be happy but that jerk Brett hurt her more than he could imagine. It is what it is though she will bounce back she has to because with what she did for my father she showed me that she was strong. She showed me that she is smart, and she showed me that no matter what happens she will come with a smile. She is a great person and I’m glad that we have reconnected too bad it took something like this to do it but we will grow and we will be closer than we ever have been. 

Jules, well she is my wife so of course I will write great things about her but it is what she deserves. If she wasn’t there for me then I don’t know what I would have done. Maybe be lost maybe be in a bigger rut then I am right now. Doing all of the funeral arrangements being there for me and Larissa. She didn’t have to do that but she did and she will always be a great person for that even if she doesn’t want the credit. Of course she will probably she did it for love but you know she also did it because she is a nice person, she is someone that will always be mine and I thank my lucky stars that I found her. And that I get to keep her as mine.  

So I guess that is what life is. Yes, it throws curves at you and you have to dodge them but whatever happens to you makes you a better person. No matter what.  

~The Kid” 

Luke Jackson sat in the hospital room the day after his father died. He looked at the bed that was in front of him alone. An empty bed was there and all he could do was stare. People would come and ask if he was alright a slight nod would be the only thing he’d give then the person would leave. He needed to be alone for the moment. Reflecting on what his father had done and what he had said and why he said it. It was hard for Luke to sit there and look at the bed that his dad used to occupy. It would take some getting used to but he would. Like anything he would fight out of this and become a better person. Luke was not someone to let one little thing hurt him. Of course he might say on twitter otherwise but he would rise up and he would be okay. He had to be.  

Luke Jackson: Well dad I’m doing this for you. 

Luke looked at the bed and then the ceiling as he said that. He closed his eye and took a deep breath and began to speak again.  

Luke Jackson: This is going to be hard and I know that man. It will be hard to fight in a match then after not call my dad and tell him what happened and how it happened. I know that he didn’t really care for me wrestling but still I needed to keep him in the loop with what happened. When I won the match with Ricky a few weeks ago and we moved on in the tournament I couldn’t believe it. We were able to get out of that hatred that we had for each other and we were able to win a match and move on. We are now one step closer to those FGA tag team titles and man I can’t believe it. I will take it though man with a smile on my face and I will keep on fighting alongside Ricky. How would it be if we were able to capture those titles no one would ever think that would happen but well I like proving people wrong so might as well keep going right? 

This week though I’m not Ricky I’m by myself again and well as for FGA me being myself hasn’t really worked. It sucks but it is the truth but I hope to change that around when I step into that ring with Nero.  

As I look at Nero man I see someone that I have faced before and someone that I have beaten before. Nero likes to play mind games man and well I’ve been there and done that. Look at what happened when I was in Pride Pro Wrestling. There was a man there named Ian Masters. Someone that wanted to control me wanted to take me out and set me as an example. What happened with him and his “family” though is that I took him on in a sadistic cage match and I came out on top. I took his mind games man and I ripped them away from me and I became stronger through them. Ian probably could have destroyed me if I let my guard down but I never did I looked him straight in the face and I beat him. That is what I will do with Nero man. He can try and get in my head lay things down that might trip people up but I will move around them. No one can get into my head he can try and toy with me but it will not matter because I will out think him and I will out with him. He can try and get into my fears and my feelings whatever he thinks will give him the advantage but I will fight through it and I will not fall to the mind games he plays. Of course he will be hard to hurt because he loves to get hurt. He loves playing through pain but man aren’t I playing through the most pain right now? My heart hurts man that isn’t like stubbing a toe or anything it is worse. Of course Nero with how he operates will try and prey on that. Hell, I know that it might hurt man but he can do whatever he wants because I will rise above that. He might not think that and he can throw out all of the insults he wants but it will not bother me. He can try to hurt me with words man but nah ain’t happening because what I’m feeling now hurts a lot more then he could even inflict upon me.  

This will be a fair match though man because Nero and I are on the same size page. We both will not be able to overpower each other. We will have to both use speed and our heads to get ahead in this match and I don’t mind playing that game. I don’t mind bouncing off the ropes and hitting him and moving and hitting him again. Of course he will do the same thing man. So on that page it will be fun to wrestle him it will be fun to see what he brings to the table. But what if I get him into trouble man? He will start to run he will start to question himself and that is what I need to do man. I need to plant that seed of doubt inside of his head and make him see that I mean business. But man I need this win and I know I say that every time but man I mean it this time. All I have to do is make him doubt himself. Kick out when he thinks he has me down and out and come back at him and try to knock him down and pin him. It is simple as that man and I need to capitalize on it.  

Luke looks at the bed one more time and nods his head. 

Luke Jackson: This is for you dad. I know you might not have had to like me wrestling but it is fine. I need to make you proud of me and this is how I need to do it. I need to get in that ring and fight Nero and beat him. I need to just keep on showing people in FGA that I might not be the strongest, or tallest, but I have the most heart. Of course I thought about walking away from the business when this happened but dad what would that have done? It wouldn’t have made you better and I wish I was here more but it happened. I will make you proud and I will fight until the day I die. I will keep on doing this because I love it, and I will stay with Jules and make her love me more and more every day. She loved dad and she was just so happy to meet you and become your little Jules. She loved when you would call her that and hit me when I called her that. Kind of unfair but whatever. 

He laughed and patted the bed got up and started to walk away he turned on his heels and put his hand on the light switch. 

Luke Jackson: I love you dad, and I will fight for you. Nero better be ready because the kid is, and I will fight for everything I have. This is my chance to shine this is my life now I’m not letting go. 

He closes his eyes and turns the light off as he leaves the room.