Breewheelin [Diary Entry #8]
Nov 2, 2015 7:13:56 GMT -5
Post by Dan Herrera on Nov 2, 2015 7:13:56 GMT -5
A month removed and the loss still stings. I stood toe to toe with Nest once again only to be knocked on my ass. It didn’t hurt though. I must say it’s getting used to being landed on lately. That's the way I feel at least. Things have begun to lose their flare for me. Wrestling has moved from being the fun I sought so hard after to the work that makes me lament waking up every morning to put in so many hours for.
It shouldn’t be this way though. It shouldn’t be so hard for me to roll out of bed in the morning knowing that the one thing I’ve dreamed about my whole life is right in front of me. But with everything I’ve gone through in the ring the past three months and everything that’s going on with Donnie, I just barely pull myself to my feet in the mornings.
Seems pretty dumb when I think about it. I’m not a bad wrestler. In fact, I’ve put a lot of time and effort into my craft. I may have a large chunk of my losses coming at me lately, but every person I’ve faced I’ve come close to defeating. That’s something right? It has to be or why else would I do it. Right now, I do it because I know that eventually I’ll pull off that big win that turns things around. Hana Song is that big win. She’s the bar set high, even after coming into things after me. She’s on a roll and when I beat her things will look a lot brighter for me. If I beat her that is.
Dear Interwebs,
It’s time I break out of this cocoon as something entirely different. Something that will show the LDFC faithful exactly what they’ve been waiting for. It’s time for me to show that I can be the best. I’ve “beaten” Hana Song before. But let's be honest, being savagely attacked by Laura Seville and awarded a win isn’t exactly a convincing way to say you’ve beaten one of the best LDFC has to offer. No, the best way to do that is to go out there and pin her. To go out there and despite everything she throws at me, evade being snake bitten. To get the once over on her and hit her so hard it hurts the next day and get the three count. That’s the Bree Nelson people expect and that’s the Bree Nelson I know I can be.
It shouldn’t be this way though. It shouldn’t be so hard for me to roll out of bed in the morning knowing that the one thing I’ve dreamed about my whole life is right in front of me. But with everything I’ve gone through in the ring the past three months and everything that’s going on with Donnie, I just barely pull myself to my feet in the mornings.
Seems pretty dumb when I think about it. I’m not a bad wrestler. In fact, I’ve put a lot of time and effort into my craft. I may have a large chunk of my losses coming at me lately, but every person I’ve faced I’ve come close to defeating. That’s something right? It has to be or why else would I do it. Right now, I do it because I know that eventually I’ll pull off that big win that turns things around. Hana Song is that big win. She’s the bar set high, even after coming into things after me. She’s on a roll and when I beat her things will look a lot brighter for me. If I beat her that is.
Dear Interwebs,
It’s your girl Bree Nelson again. I know it’s been awhile and I’m sorry for making you all wait on me. I’ve just not been very social lately. I know, that’s bad. But sometimes you want to climb into bed, pull the covers over you, roll over three or four times, and sit in your cocoon for days on end. That’s my mindset lately. Hide myself from the world and just hope that things change. That would be nice wouldn’t it.
But the world doesn’t work that way. It never has and it never will. You can wish and hope all you want that things will change, but they never will. That is unless you get up and do something about it. To fight the good fight, you have to be willing to start the fight. Or else it will never be a good one, just something that spirals out of control and takes you with it down into the depths.
As miserable as I’ve made myself the past few months by deciding that my fighting was nothing short of terrible, I’m still putting in the work. I still show up to class every day and I still watch and learn from my instructors. Because despite how hard it is to be a professional wrestler, it is still my dream. I still want to be the best. Despite the fact that no one in their right mind would call me that right now, I know I can… no… I know I will be the best.
It’s time I break out of this cocoon as something entirely different. Something that will show the LDFC faithful exactly what they’ve been waiting for. It’s time for me to show that I can be the best. I’ve “beaten” Hana Song before. But let's be honest, being savagely attacked by Laura Seville and awarded a win isn’t exactly a convincing way to say you’ve beaten one of the best LDFC has to offer. No, the best way to do that is to go out there and pin her. To go out there and despite everything she throws at me, evade being snake bitten. To get the once over on her and hit her so hard it hurts the next day and get the three count. That’s the Bree Nelson people expect and that’s the Bree Nelson I know I can be.
At Pride, I’ll show everyone just that, including myself. No more moping around cause everything in my life doesn’t seem to be going my way. Time to take matters into my own hands and make the best out of a bad run. The only way to win in poker is to play. And even when you’ve had a bad run, you can turn one hand into a bigger winner than you’ve lost in the past ten hands. The cards are dealt. At Salvo, I go all in. I make my own luck. And I beat Hana Song. See you all there.
♥ Bree Nelson ♥