Bring The Pain
Jan 9, 2012 14:17:26 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jan 9, 2012 14:17:26 GMT -5
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
The emphasis is now on long-range financial planning, thinking about future security, and formulating strategies to achieve your ambitions. Your ability to study quietly, to concentrate on complex mental work, and to think deeply about serious matters is much better than usual. This is a good time to organize your affairs and also to seek professional advice about your concerns.
The emphasis is now on long-range financial planning, thinking about future security, and formulating strategies to achieve your ambitions. Your ability to study quietly, to concentrate on complex mental work, and to think deeply about serious matters is much better than usual. This is a good time to organize your affairs and also to seek professional advice about your concerns.
I don't know what's more upsetting. That I was beaten, that I was beaten by Scott Reave or that niggling fear in the back of my mind that I've let myself down. Victories and defeats come and go, they're part of the sport. I know that. But ... I've let myself down.
Jenny
Are you okay, Blaine?
Blaine Harrison
I'll be fine...
Technically not a lie. I'm not saying I'm fine just now. Between the pain in my arms and the self-loathing that's bubbling up in the pit of stomach, I'm a mess right now. I'm sat on a bench in the locker room of the Monroe Township Community Center after the rest of the roster have packed up and gone. Jenny holding an ice pack to my injured left arm.
Blaine Harrison
It better be fucking healed by Saturday.
Jenny stares doe-eyed at me; apparently in the month we've known each other she hasn't heard me swear too often and had me pegged as a clean mouthed guy. She doesn't understand that I have another wrestling match down in Peach State on Saturday and don't want to give anything less than one hundred percent either there or next Wednesday when I return to New Jersey.
Jenny
You tried your best out there, don't worry too much about the result.
Blaine Harrison
No.
Jenny
No what?
Blaine Harrison
I didn't try my best, I couldn't have done. If I had tried my best I could have beaten him, my arm wouldn't feel like it's been ripped from my body, dissected and reattached. I wouldn't hate myself so much right now. So, no, I didn't try my best out there. And I will worry about the result!
There's a very awkward silence; I'm exposing a new side of myself to Jenny tonight and she's not liking what she sees. I'm not too sure if she usually likes me, I mean, sure she's friendly but that might just be professional courtesy. I nod and smile at people all the time, she might be doing the same.
Blaine Harrison
Sorry ... I shouldn't take this out on you.
I should take it out on myself.
Blaine Harrison
It's not your fault, I don't mean to bark at you.
I lacked strength and stamina; I'll bust my ass in the gym harder and for longer than usual until I feel I'm doing better. Until I can tell I've improved.
Jenny
It's okay, honest. My dad used to do the same thing when I was a kid ... And you're nowhere near as scary.
She says cheekily. And it makes me smile. Jenny takes one hand from the ice pack and places it on my cheek, which, of course is cold to the touch.
Jenny
Lets look forward to next week and your match against Elliot Black.
If he makes it to the arena this time.
Blaine Harrison
Yeah, I'll look forward to that one...
I say as I rise from my seat on the bench. Half an hour after my match and I'm still stewing in my sweat soaked trunks, stinking out this locker room. Bless Jenny for not complaining about the smell, but I need to have a shower before I leave here.
Blaine Harrison
I need a shower...
Jenny
Okay, go ahead. I'll be waiting in the car.
She leaves, taking the ice pack with her. I stretch my arm out; the pain shoots up and down with each millimetre of movement. Damn, Scott Reave really did a number on me tonight. I don't want to have to take it out on Elliot Black, he's done nothing to deserve the brunt of it. He's just like me, a little upstart trying to make a name for himself and I want to put on a good match with him. I want to put on a main event quality match like I did tonight, but a) with my arm like and b) Elliot Black's less than stellar record of even turning up at the arena, I'll settle for being filler this week.
OOC: I know it's not my usual quality, time got away from me this week.