"Lionheart"
Sept 3, 2015 4:23:48 GMT -5
Post by Yun Goeun on Sept 3, 2015 4:23:48 GMT -5
Sebastian Grey had been over at Yun's apartment for a few hours now, the two of them sat on her couch watching some movie in Korean. Sebastian didn't want to admit he was bored and barely keeping up with the plot through the fast and terrible subtitles, he was enjoying his time with her, now that they were back together.
Yun had been back together with Sebastian Grey for about two weeks now, and she found her self pretty happy about the decision. She would beat her self up over the break up all the time, and now had found her self at peace about that at least. There was still a mess in her life, but at least now she had some help cleaning it up.
Yun let out a sigh, responding to the movie, and rested her head on to Sebastian's shoulder. He smiled, though he had no clue what was going on in the movie. He was hoping they could switch to something more his speed after this. Chick flicks were not his thing to begin with, make them in Korean and he was checking out. Yun, glancing up at Sebastian realized he was bored and took him by surprise and pulled her self onto his lap.
Yun leaned in and gave him a kiss, kind of an awkward kiss as this was pretty new to Yun, but Sebastian was used to this. Sebastian slid one hand around to her back to welcome her, he went to move his other hand around her too when Yun stopped it with one of her hands and moved Sebastian's free hand up to one of her breasts. Sebastian was a bit taken back by this, as in all their years of dating this is the furthest he's gotten on the baseball diamond...
Yun cringed.
---
A young Yun was sitting across an elderly man in a swank looking office, Yun looked to be maybe 14 at the most. Next to her was another man, who looked to be in his late forties. The older of the two man was talking to Yun, but she could not hear the words coming out of his mouth. All she could focus on was the other man.
He was leering at her, with lust in his eyes.
Yun could feel her skin crawl.
Even now, she could feel it crawl.
She tried to focus on the older man, who was showing her pictures of a dress now. Yun just nodded in agreement, but still was not sure what he was saying, her mind was fully on the other guy.
"Do you understand Yun?" the man says, loudly. It grabs Yun's attention off the leering man. Yun just nods, not saying anything. "Okay then, we need to fit you for it. Which is why Mr. Kim is here." he says, gesturing to the man who was leering at her.
Yun turned to acknowledge the other man, Mr. Kim, and just as she did realized he had gotten up and was now behind her. Yun tried to get up quickly in a start but before she could, the man placed both of his hands on Yun's waist, and slowly traced them up her body until he comes to her breasts, cupping both of them.
Yun let out a loud scream.
---
"Are you okay?" Sebastian asks Yun, snapping her back into the moment.
"Sorry, please... Let us just continue." she says, her mind reeling a little bit. She was excited, for sure. But deep down she was also terrified. To try to shake her self free of that memory, she pressed Sebastian's hand into her breast a bit harder. Almost forcing his hand to mash it. Sebastian pulled her close with his hand around her back and kissed her, deeply. He knew this was a big thing for her.
Yun moved her hand away from Sebastian's now, and started to return the kiss to him, and he took the initiative and slide it under her shirt and back up to her breast, cupping one of her breasts through her bra. Just then Yun felt Sebastian's tongue push through her lips and into her mouth.
Yun reeled back from it, breaking the kiss.
She closed her eyes.
---
Yun was sitting again in a swank looking office, once again sitting across from the executive. Only this time fellow Pink Doll member, Miranda was on the other side of the desk also. She was perched on the lap of some older man, and was slowly grinding her hips into his. Yun was the only other person in the room besides those two, and she was trying hard to ignore everything.
This was supposed to be a meeting on song assignments, but it had turned into anything but a normal meeting. It was only the writer, Miranda and Yun present, none of the other members were here. And like normal Miranda was using her body to get the bulk of the lines... This time though, forcing Yun to watch. It was one of her favorite ways to hurt Yun.
Yun wanted to be anywhere but there.
Yun got up and walked to the door behind her, but it was locked.
Miranda said something to Yun to draw her attention, but Yun didn't really hear what she said. She turned around to see what Miranda wanted, only to discover she was now kissing the guy. Her tongue was darting deep into the guys mouth.
Yun sat down in the corner of the room and closed her eyes.
---
"You sure you are okay?" Sebastian says to her, once again snapping Yun back into the moment. She lets out a loud sigh.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just, dealing with some demons." she says, she starts to lean in to kiss Sebastian only to realize she would look exactly as Miranda did and stopped almost in her tracks. Sebastian realizing something is wrong, removed his hand from under her shirt and wrapped both arms around her, then shifted her off of him, laying her down on the couch.
Sebastian opens her legs a bit so he could get in between her to lean over her to kiss her, the second he leans down though, Yun starts to breath heavy. Sebastian stops what he is doing and starts to pull away from her.
"No, please... I want this." Yun says, trying to calm her self down.
She uses her arms to pull Sebastian down on top of her. The two start kissing again, deeply, almost at once Yun slips her tongue into his mouth. Her mind is buzzing, thoughts racing through her brain a mile a minute. She was almost unable to keep her mind focused on the task. She was tired of being a virgin, she knew deep down others looked at her as being 'weird' for not being able to go through with one simple act... She was fine with that, it was a choice. But Sebastian had been with her for so long, and she loved him... She wanted this to happen.
Sebastian taking the initiative, moved one of his hands down between her legs. Slowly. He looked to Yun as he did it, who just nodded. Yun responded almost at once biting her lower lip hard...
---
Young Yun was laid out on a couch.
She could not feel her legs, or her arms.
In fact, she could feel nothing at all.
The more she tried to move her limbs, the more she panicked. A deep terror flooded Yun's mind as she looked around the room. She was in one of the executive offices of the SYC Building, no one else was in the room but her, and it was dimly lit through an overhead light. Just as she took in her surroundings, she saw the door open and a man who seemed to be in his sixties walked in.
"You okay, Yun?" he asks, laughing a bit, "Oh of course you are. How was that shake you had for dinner? Not too filling I hope." he says, as he sits down on the couch next to her, unbuttoning his suit jacket top.
Yun was panicking now, trying hard to move any of her limbs. But still nothing happened. The fear flooding her mind was worse in this moment than at any other time in her life. She was screaming on the inside, trying anything to get her body to move.
The man took off his suit jacket and tossed it aside.
He looked over Yun with a smile, then slowly slid both of his hands up her legs.
Yun was repulsed. She wanted to scream, she wanted to kill this guy. But still, nothing would move.
After working his way up to her thighs, the man hooked the band of her pants and unbuttoned them, then forcefully yanked them off leaving Yun in her panties.
"You look delicious." he says, running his hands back up her legs.
As he got to her thighs this time, he used one of his fingers to poke at her unmentionable.
In this moment, Yun bit down on her lip in such a force it broke the skin and drew blood, and forced her limbs into movement. In a roaring scream, Yun brought the knee of her right leg hard into the testicles of the old man, who let out a loud groan of pain and fell off the couch to the ground...
---
Yun responded almost at once biting her lower lip hard...
Hard enough to draw blood, just like in her memory.
Yun lets out a loud scream and smacks Sebastian's hand away. She then shoves him off of her in a forceful push, sending him to the ground in a thud. Yun scrambled to pull her self up right, crying now.
"Don't touch me!" she screamed out through the tears, trying to cover her face in shame.
Sebastian pulled him self together and got up, and took a seat next to Yun on the couch.
"I'm sorry, I could tell something was wrong. I should not have pushed." he said to her, trying to move her hands so he could wipe the tears away. Yun just looked at him, causing her to start crying more.
"No, it is my fault. My demons are worse than I thought. I really want to do this with you, Sebastian. I just... Not everything that glitters is gold, let us just leave it at that. I'll work through my demons, just please give me more time. I am sorry, I am so sorry..." she says, as he wipes away at her tears more.
"You should talk to me Yun, we can fight these demons together." he says with a smile.
"I know, I should..." she says, right as she finishes saying that the door comes open as Joe Shamrock comes barging in, he had a baseball bat in his hand. He looked from Sebastian, to Yun who is still crying, then back to Sebastian.
"It's not what it looks like!" Yun screams out almost at once.
"...what? Oh this? THIS is not what it looks like either." Joe says, realizing he is holding a baseball bat. "I just had baseball, ya know I play it every Monday, Wednesday and Friday... Yun. Besides, I know if Sebastian ever tried anything you would kick his ass before I did. Just tell me what happened later and I'll judge if I need to thump him one..." Shamrock says, walking out of the living room and down the hall to his room.
"...well I almost had a heart attack." Sebastian says, jokingly, which causes Yun to laugh.
Sebastian preferred seeing her laughing than crying...
~~~~~~~~~~
Yun Cam
~~~~~~~~~~
You know what shocked me more than anything on the last show? That someone wants to be my tag team partner right now. I mean I guess on one hand, I didn't exactly lose. But on the other hand, I still didn't win.
I know I really need to stop beating my self up on this but really?
Why can't I win!?
Back in the day, when Amy wanted to be my tag partner, I understood that. I was winning then, I was good then. Now I am like so far gone from that. I walked into the ring with confidence and now all I can do is sit behind this camera and cry about not winning.
Why would Ling want to be my partner?
I was going to hold her down. She was amazing in the ring.
She was a lot like myself. She didn't deserve to have me hold her back.
But how could I say that to her? When asked if I wanted to team with her, how was I going to say no and cry about how I just can't seem to win? Then look who we get stuck facing in our first match? Dan and Dom, two people I've looked up to for a while. Dom since PDW and Dan since I first joined here.
I know what they can do. They are two of the biggest names in our industry, and Ling is as I said fantastic in the ring her self. They all deserve more than me in this ring. They deserve to hear me do anything other than whine about my misfortune.
...and I really wish I could get over my damn self.
But here I am, unable to get out of my own way.
Fujiko was a good place to build on, I saw a part of me I've not seen in a while. I would not say quit, I would not give up. I kept on fighting until the bitter end. But kicking out and not giving up didn't do much good because I couldn't put her away. Ugh, I wish I could get this crap out of my head. Especially starting a new era of my career.
The Hallyu Wave doubles down on FGA.
I should be hype about that, not sitting here being a wet noodle.
Ling, I am so stoked to team with you for the first time ever this week.
I hope I don't do so bad you go running for... okay Yun, you know what?
You are better than this. Okay, MAYBE I am not better than this.
But, frankly, if I were back in Korea I wouldn't know who the fuck I was looking at right now.
So here is what you are going to do Yun, you are going to shut the fuck up with the whining.
You are never going to utter the phrase "Why can't I win?" again.
You are going to go back to screaming Hwaiting and you are going to BELIEVE IT when you scream it.
You are going to be the Baddest Female you can be.
You are going to quit being a bitch and woman the fuck up.
Then, you are going to stop talking in the third person.
...Okay. Breath. One.
Two.
Breath...
So, you guys thought just one Yun was bad? Well prepare for trouble and make that shit double.
That is right, you have two of us to worry about now. Because just one Yun is not bad enough, we have a Ling to contend with now also. We sing, we dance, and we kick ass.
Okay that was cheesy. Lets not do that either.
I have to be honest, I'm just barely treading water here.
I am trying to woman up, but my mind just wants me to whine.
But I promise that will change. So for now I really think I should just walk away from this camera.
Maybe I should let Ling do all the talking for us right now? She is so energetic, she could really bring enough energy for both of us to the match. Like, instead of dialing own her coffee intake we turn it up to ELEVEN and just let her be #Lingster -AND- #Yunster at the same time.
Actually maybe dialing her coffee up to Eleven is a bad plan. I think that may doom the world, almost like me and Izzy hitting our kicks at the same time. I am actually picturing Ling with a caffeine intake dialed up to Eleven and the whole vision is -very- scary... Woah
I think I should get off the camera for now.
I need to prove to myself, my fans, and everyone in the back that I am not just another One Hit Wonder. I gotta prove I am still the same Yun I was three years ago...
...I got to prove I can still fight.
This time with the Lingster at my side, I feel I am ready.
#Yunster and #Lingster... HWAITING.
Yun had been back together with Sebastian Grey for about two weeks now, and she found her self pretty happy about the decision. She would beat her self up over the break up all the time, and now had found her self at peace about that at least. There was still a mess in her life, but at least now she had some help cleaning it up.
Yun let out a sigh, responding to the movie, and rested her head on to Sebastian's shoulder. He smiled, though he had no clue what was going on in the movie. He was hoping they could switch to something more his speed after this. Chick flicks were not his thing to begin with, make them in Korean and he was checking out. Yun, glancing up at Sebastian realized he was bored and took him by surprise and pulled her self onto his lap.
Yun leaned in and gave him a kiss, kind of an awkward kiss as this was pretty new to Yun, but Sebastian was used to this. Sebastian slid one hand around to her back to welcome her, he went to move his other hand around her too when Yun stopped it with one of her hands and moved Sebastian's free hand up to one of her breasts. Sebastian was a bit taken back by this, as in all their years of dating this is the furthest he's gotten on the baseball diamond...
Yun cringed.
---
A young Yun was sitting across an elderly man in a swank looking office, Yun looked to be maybe 14 at the most. Next to her was another man, who looked to be in his late forties. The older of the two man was talking to Yun, but she could not hear the words coming out of his mouth. All she could focus on was the other man.
He was leering at her, with lust in his eyes.
Yun could feel her skin crawl.
Even now, she could feel it crawl.
She tried to focus on the older man, who was showing her pictures of a dress now. Yun just nodded in agreement, but still was not sure what he was saying, her mind was fully on the other guy.
"Do you understand Yun?" the man says, loudly. It grabs Yun's attention off the leering man. Yun just nods, not saying anything. "Okay then, we need to fit you for it. Which is why Mr. Kim is here." he says, gesturing to the man who was leering at her.
Yun turned to acknowledge the other man, Mr. Kim, and just as she did realized he had gotten up and was now behind her. Yun tried to get up quickly in a start but before she could, the man placed both of his hands on Yun's waist, and slowly traced them up her body until he comes to her breasts, cupping both of them.
Yun let out a loud scream.
---
"Are you okay?" Sebastian asks Yun, snapping her back into the moment.
"Sorry, please... Let us just continue." she says, her mind reeling a little bit. She was excited, for sure. But deep down she was also terrified. To try to shake her self free of that memory, she pressed Sebastian's hand into her breast a bit harder. Almost forcing his hand to mash it. Sebastian pulled her close with his hand around her back and kissed her, deeply. He knew this was a big thing for her.
Yun moved her hand away from Sebastian's now, and started to return the kiss to him, and he took the initiative and slide it under her shirt and back up to her breast, cupping one of her breasts through her bra. Just then Yun felt Sebastian's tongue push through her lips and into her mouth.
Yun reeled back from it, breaking the kiss.
She closed her eyes.
---
Yun was sitting again in a swank looking office, once again sitting across from the executive. Only this time fellow Pink Doll member, Miranda was on the other side of the desk also. She was perched on the lap of some older man, and was slowly grinding her hips into his. Yun was the only other person in the room besides those two, and she was trying hard to ignore everything.
This was supposed to be a meeting on song assignments, but it had turned into anything but a normal meeting. It was only the writer, Miranda and Yun present, none of the other members were here. And like normal Miranda was using her body to get the bulk of the lines... This time though, forcing Yun to watch. It was one of her favorite ways to hurt Yun.
Yun wanted to be anywhere but there.
Yun got up and walked to the door behind her, but it was locked.
Miranda said something to Yun to draw her attention, but Yun didn't really hear what she said. She turned around to see what Miranda wanted, only to discover she was now kissing the guy. Her tongue was darting deep into the guys mouth.
Yun sat down in the corner of the room and closed her eyes.
---
"You sure you are okay?" Sebastian says to her, once again snapping Yun back into the moment. She lets out a loud sigh.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just, dealing with some demons." she says, she starts to lean in to kiss Sebastian only to realize she would look exactly as Miranda did and stopped almost in her tracks. Sebastian realizing something is wrong, removed his hand from under her shirt and wrapped both arms around her, then shifted her off of him, laying her down on the couch.
Sebastian opens her legs a bit so he could get in between her to lean over her to kiss her, the second he leans down though, Yun starts to breath heavy. Sebastian stops what he is doing and starts to pull away from her.
"No, please... I want this." Yun says, trying to calm her self down.
She uses her arms to pull Sebastian down on top of her. The two start kissing again, deeply, almost at once Yun slips her tongue into his mouth. Her mind is buzzing, thoughts racing through her brain a mile a minute. She was almost unable to keep her mind focused on the task. She was tired of being a virgin, she knew deep down others looked at her as being 'weird' for not being able to go through with one simple act... She was fine with that, it was a choice. But Sebastian had been with her for so long, and she loved him... She wanted this to happen.
Sebastian taking the initiative, moved one of his hands down between her legs. Slowly. He looked to Yun as he did it, who just nodded. Yun responded almost at once biting her lower lip hard...
---
Young Yun was laid out on a couch.
She could not feel her legs, or her arms.
In fact, she could feel nothing at all.
The more she tried to move her limbs, the more she panicked. A deep terror flooded Yun's mind as she looked around the room. She was in one of the executive offices of the SYC Building, no one else was in the room but her, and it was dimly lit through an overhead light. Just as she took in her surroundings, she saw the door open and a man who seemed to be in his sixties walked in.
"You okay, Yun?" he asks, laughing a bit, "Oh of course you are. How was that shake you had for dinner? Not too filling I hope." he says, as he sits down on the couch next to her, unbuttoning his suit jacket top.
Yun was panicking now, trying hard to move any of her limbs. But still nothing happened. The fear flooding her mind was worse in this moment than at any other time in her life. She was screaming on the inside, trying anything to get her body to move.
The man took off his suit jacket and tossed it aside.
He looked over Yun with a smile, then slowly slid both of his hands up her legs.
Yun was repulsed. She wanted to scream, she wanted to kill this guy. But still, nothing would move.
After working his way up to her thighs, the man hooked the band of her pants and unbuttoned them, then forcefully yanked them off leaving Yun in her panties.
"You look delicious." he says, running his hands back up her legs.
As he got to her thighs this time, he used one of his fingers to poke at her unmentionable.
In this moment, Yun bit down on her lip in such a force it broke the skin and drew blood, and forced her limbs into movement. In a roaring scream, Yun brought the knee of her right leg hard into the testicles of the old man, who let out a loud groan of pain and fell off the couch to the ground...
---
Yun responded almost at once biting her lower lip hard...
Hard enough to draw blood, just like in her memory.
Yun lets out a loud scream and smacks Sebastian's hand away. She then shoves him off of her in a forceful push, sending him to the ground in a thud. Yun scrambled to pull her self up right, crying now.
"Don't touch me!" she screamed out through the tears, trying to cover her face in shame.
Sebastian pulled him self together and got up, and took a seat next to Yun on the couch.
"I'm sorry, I could tell something was wrong. I should not have pushed." he said to her, trying to move her hands so he could wipe the tears away. Yun just looked at him, causing her to start crying more.
"No, it is my fault. My demons are worse than I thought. I really want to do this with you, Sebastian. I just... Not everything that glitters is gold, let us just leave it at that. I'll work through my demons, just please give me more time. I am sorry, I am so sorry..." she says, as he wipes away at her tears more.
"You should talk to me Yun, we can fight these demons together." he says with a smile.
"I know, I should..." she says, right as she finishes saying that the door comes open as Joe Shamrock comes barging in, he had a baseball bat in his hand. He looked from Sebastian, to Yun who is still crying, then back to Sebastian.
"It's not what it looks like!" Yun screams out almost at once.
"...what? Oh this? THIS is not what it looks like either." Joe says, realizing he is holding a baseball bat. "I just had baseball, ya know I play it every Monday, Wednesday and Friday... Yun. Besides, I know if Sebastian ever tried anything you would kick his ass before I did. Just tell me what happened later and I'll judge if I need to thump him one..." Shamrock says, walking out of the living room and down the hall to his room.
"...well I almost had a heart attack." Sebastian says, jokingly, which causes Yun to laugh.
Sebastian preferred seeing her laughing than crying...
~~~~~~~~~~
Yun Cam
~~~~~~~~~~
You know what shocked me more than anything on the last show? That someone wants to be my tag team partner right now. I mean I guess on one hand, I didn't exactly lose. But on the other hand, I still didn't win.
I know I really need to stop beating my self up on this but really?
Why can't I win!?
Back in the day, when Amy wanted to be my tag partner, I understood that. I was winning then, I was good then. Now I am like so far gone from that. I walked into the ring with confidence and now all I can do is sit behind this camera and cry about not winning.
Why would Ling want to be my partner?
I was going to hold her down. She was amazing in the ring.
She was a lot like myself. She didn't deserve to have me hold her back.
But how could I say that to her? When asked if I wanted to team with her, how was I going to say no and cry about how I just can't seem to win? Then look who we get stuck facing in our first match? Dan and Dom, two people I've looked up to for a while. Dom since PDW and Dan since I first joined here.
I know what they can do. They are two of the biggest names in our industry, and Ling is as I said fantastic in the ring her self. They all deserve more than me in this ring. They deserve to hear me do anything other than whine about my misfortune.
...and I really wish I could get over my damn self.
But here I am, unable to get out of my own way.
Fujiko was a good place to build on, I saw a part of me I've not seen in a while. I would not say quit, I would not give up. I kept on fighting until the bitter end. But kicking out and not giving up didn't do much good because I couldn't put her away. Ugh, I wish I could get this crap out of my head. Especially starting a new era of my career.
The Hallyu Wave doubles down on FGA.
I should be hype about that, not sitting here being a wet noodle.
Ling, I am so stoked to team with you for the first time ever this week.
I hope I don't do so bad you go running for... okay Yun, you know what?
You are better than this. Okay, MAYBE I am not better than this.
But, frankly, if I were back in Korea I wouldn't know who the fuck I was looking at right now.
So here is what you are going to do Yun, you are going to shut the fuck up with the whining.
You are never going to utter the phrase "Why can't I win?" again.
You are going to go back to screaming Hwaiting and you are going to BELIEVE IT when you scream it.
You are going to be the Baddest Female you can be.
You are going to quit being a bitch and woman the fuck up.
Then, you are going to stop talking in the third person.
...Okay. Breath. One.
Two.
Breath...
So, you guys thought just one Yun was bad? Well prepare for trouble and make that shit double.
That is right, you have two of us to worry about now. Because just one Yun is not bad enough, we have a Ling to contend with now also. We sing, we dance, and we kick ass.
Okay that was cheesy. Lets not do that either.
I have to be honest, I'm just barely treading water here.
I am trying to woman up, but my mind just wants me to whine.
But I promise that will change. So for now I really think I should just walk away from this camera.
Maybe I should let Ling do all the talking for us right now? She is so energetic, she could really bring enough energy for both of us to the match. Like, instead of dialing own her coffee intake we turn it up to ELEVEN and just let her be #Lingster -AND- #Yunster at the same time.
Actually maybe dialing her coffee up to Eleven is a bad plan. I think that may doom the world, almost like me and Izzy hitting our kicks at the same time. I am actually picturing Ling with a caffeine intake dialed up to Eleven and the whole vision is -very- scary... Woah
I think I should get off the camera for now.
I need to prove to myself, my fans, and everyone in the back that I am not just another One Hit Wonder. I gotta prove I am still the same Yun I was three years ago...
...I got to prove I can still fight.
This time with the Lingster at my side, I feel I am ready.
#Yunster and #Lingster... HWAITING.
