Dispatches III
Sept 18, 2019 15:38:37 GMT -5
Post by James Edwards on Sept 18, 2019 15:38:37 GMT -5
The following is the audio available to the subscribers on the $5 tier of James Edwards' Pateron page:
"It's been a couple of weeks since All-Star Showdown and I've had some time to process things. Just when I think I'm headin' to where I need to be, the Draft happens."
"I was halfway jokin' when I said I didn't want to get sent to Nam, but there was some truth there too. I didn't want to go back to Vertigo. It's not that I hate the show. I hate people on the show and I sure as hell don't wanna be around them, and I don't have any good memories from being on it. None of those are the reason why I didn't want to move shows. I had a lot left to prove on Flashpoint."
"I really wanted another opportunity at the International Heavyweight Championship. I really wanted to beat Savannah, and I thought that with Jimmy Page losing the title picture was empty. I thought I had a shot at climbing my way back into contention. That's not gonna happen now, even with there still being a lot of hatred left between Savannah and me. It ain't a secret. I hate that bitch. I stuck my neck out last summer to welcome her to Team Flashpoint when everyone else said to stay clear of her. The second I decided to disagree with her little boy toy Chandler Scott--and don't try tellin' me there ain't something there between those two--she chose to tell me to fuck off. Then she tried to use me, or whatever anger she had, about a title that wasn't even hers anymore that I held. She tried to use that as a springboard back to relevance, and what pisses me off is that it fuckin' worked! She losses to me and then goes on the run of her career. I have the last pinfall against a current World Champion, and now I'm gone from the show. It pisses me off because I know I can beat her and that she can't beat me. The world's already seen that happen."
"Now I'm on a show where I don't have a chance in hell of being in the world title picture. I'm not sayin' that out of bitterness; I'm sayin' it because it's true. There are a thousand people on Vertigo who are in line to get a shot before me: Cure and Madison. Who else? Well, those are the only two I can think of off the top of my head."
"I'll tell y'all something else, I feel kinda rejected by the new Flashpoint GM. Whoever it is is more concerned with bringing back people from the past or investin' in people who've had more luck come their way, like Nina Stokes, then somebody like me who busted his ass off for that show. It's like I said on Twitter, Flashpoint was my home promotion in the United States. I finally felt comfortable in FGA after having a shitty experience on the Macdonald regime."
"Now I gotta start all over, and for the first time in a long time, I'm nervous. I don't know what's waitin' for me. I don't have anybody watchin' my back. On Flashpoint I kinda got along with Pendragon, they didn't hate my fuckin' guts. I'm sure they might've teamed with me if I need em' in a pinch. Then I guess that is really it. Jesus, there are just so many people who hate my fuckin' guts on Vertigo. I don't know. I just wanted to stay on Flashpoint, but that ain't the way the world works. I'm done bitchin' about it. I'll say I'm unhappy about it, but I'm gonna go and show up for work, even if I'm not scheduled to fight. I promised the camera crew on the last AfterBurn that they could have an interview with me and I meant it. That doesn't mean I'm done with this show because I enjoy doing it. I enjoy being able to put my spin on events, but I gotta bite the bullet and start doing interviews again, Part of my job as an FGA grappler is to promote shit. I still don't like the idea of an interviewer stickin' a microphone in my face. So we made a deal, me and FGA. They'll send a camera crew, and I'll talk when I wanna talk. I won't talk when I don't wanna talk. I told em' that there are some nights where I might lose my cool, and I don't want to make them or me look bad."
"As far as sellin' shirts goes, that was a hard one to negotiate. When I started hawkin' shirts in the parking lot I was doing it to spite the front office. Then I started to enjoy meeting y'all. The few of that do are the only ones around FGA that still believe in me, and you won't hear me say this other than here, but I appreciate y'all. Hell, I love y'all. Just don't think I'm going soft, okay? Anyway, getting back to sellin' shirts, FGA doesn't want me doing it, so I'm not going to. I ain't happy about it, but I'm on thin ice with the office right now so there really ain't a lot I can do. I will still be sellin' shirts through my website. That'll start when I have time. Y'all know I keep a busy schedule, and I probably should hire somebody to do it, but I'd rather do it myself because it cuts out the middle man. I think too, one thing that can stop me from is signin' autographs. I'll be doing that, for free, before shows and maybe after, depending on how I feel. There will be some nights I won't feel up to it and will need some time to myself. Just remember that I'm a person too. That'll start happening in a show or two once I get settled in on Vertigo. Keep an eye on Twitter for that."
"I know some of y'all want me to hit on the Chris Madison. I ain't up to talkin' about it yet. I made a mistake and got caught in a submission, again. Shit, that's three of the last pay shows I've lost via submission. I'm starting to think maybe I need one of my own. I mean y'all have seen me use em' before, but I need one that I can count on late in the fight, when I'm tired and may not have a Gospel in me. I'll figure that out, but right now I'm gonna get off of here. Thanks for subscribing y'all.
"It's been a couple of weeks since All-Star Showdown and I've had some time to process things. Just when I think I'm headin' to where I need to be, the Draft happens."
"I was halfway jokin' when I said I didn't want to get sent to Nam, but there was some truth there too. I didn't want to go back to Vertigo. It's not that I hate the show. I hate people on the show and I sure as hell don't wanna be around them, and I don't have any good memories from being on it. None of those are the reason why I didn't want to move shows. I had a lot left to prove on Flashpoint."
"I really wanted another opportunity at the International Heavyweight Championship. I really wanted to beat Savannah, and I thought that with Jimmy Page losing the title picture was empty. I thought I had a shot at climbing my way back into contention. That's not gonna happen now, even with there still being a lot of hatred left between Savannah and me. It ain't a secret. I hate that bitch. I stuck my neck out last summer to welcome her to Team Flashpoint when everyone else said to stay clear of her. The second I decided to disagree with her little boy toy Chandler Scott--and don't try tellin' me there ain't something there between those two--she chose to tell me to fuck off. Then she tried to use me, or whatever anger she had, about a title that wasn't even hers anymore that I held. She tried to use that as a springboard back to relevance, and what pisses me off is that it fuckin' worked! She losses to me and then goes on the run of her career. I have the last pinfall against a current World Champion, and now I'm gone from the show. It pisses me off because I know I can beat her and that she can't beat me. The world's already seen that happen."
"Now I'm on a show where I don't have a chance in hell of being in the world title picture. I'm not sayin' that out of bitterness; I'm sayin' it because it's true. There are a thousand people on Vertigo who are in line to get a shot before me: Cure and Madison. Who else? Well, those are the only two I can think of off the top of my head."
"I'll tell y'all something else, I feel kinda rejected by the new Flashpoint GM. Whoever it is is more concerned with bringing back people from the past or investin' in people who've had more luck come their way, like Nina Stokes, then somebody like me who busted his ass off for that show. It's like I said on Twitter, Flashpoint was my home promotion in the United States. I finally felt comfortable in FGA after having a shitty experience on the Macdonald regime."
"Now I gotta start all over, and for the first time in a long time, I'm nervous. I don't know what's waitin' for me. I don't have anybody watchin' my back. On Flashpoint I kinda got along with Pendragon, they didn't hate my fuckin' guts. I'm sure they might've teamed with me if I need em' in a pinch. Then I guess that is really it. Jesus, there are just so many people who hate my fuckin' guts on Vertigo. I don't know. I just wanted to stay on Flashpoint, but that ain't the way the world works. I'm done bitchin' about it. I'll say I'm unhappy about it, but I'm gonna go and show up for work, even if I'm not scheduled to fight. I promised the camera crew on the last AfterBurn that they could have an interview with me and I meant it. That doesn't mean I'm done with this show because I enjoy doing it. I enjoy being able to put my spin on events, but I gotta bite the bullet and start doing interviews again, Part of my job as an FGA grappler is to promote shit. I still don't like the idea of an interviewer stickin' a microphone in my face. So we made a deal, me and FGA. They'll send a camera crew, and I'll talk when I wanna talk. I won't talk when I don't wanna talk. I told em' that there are some nights where I might lose my cool, and I don't want to make them or me look bad."
"As far as sellin' shirts goes, that was a hard one to negotiate. When I started hawkin' shirts in the parking lot I was doing it to spite the front office. Then I started to enjoy meeting y'all. The few of that do are the only ones around FGA that still believe in me, and you won't hear me say this other than here, but I appreciate y'all. Hell, I love y'all. Just don't think I'm going soft, okay? Anyway, getting back to sellin' shirts, FGA doesn't want me doing it, so I'm not going to. I ain't happy about it, but I'm on thin ice with the office right now so there really ain't a lot I can do. I will still be sellin' shirts through my website. That'll start when I have time. Y'all know I keep a busy schedule, and I probably should hire somebody to do it, but I'd rather do it myself because it cuts out the middle man. I think too, one thing that can stop me from is signin' autographs. I'll be doing that, for free, before shows and maybe after, depending on how I feel. There will be some nights I won't feel up to it and will need some time to myself. Just remember that I'm a person too. That'll start happening in a show or two once I get settled in on Vertigo. Keep an eye on Twitter for that."
"I know some of y'all want me to hit on the Chris Madison. I ain't up to talkin' about it yet. I made a mistake and got caught in a submission, again. Shit, that's three of the last pay shows I've lost via submission. I'm starting to think maybe I need one of my own. I mean y'all have seen me use em' before, but I need one that I can count on late in the fight, when I'm tired and may not have a Gospel in me. I'll figure that out, but right now I'm gonna get off of here. Thanks for subscribing y'all.