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11/30/15

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Maybe I did rush into things.



Rex laughed at me when I asked him to to train me, but he laughed even harder when I told him how soon I wanted to make my debut. When he started to see how serious I was, how much drive I had underneath my not-fit-for-wrestling exterior, he began to open his mind. He began to push me harder, work me longer.



But he still said it was too early. He understood why I wanted to make the big debut so he told me he wouldn’t fight it, but he said he thought I was rushing and that it would be okay if I backed out and took my time. I thought I proved my point when I beat Kennedy Leight Black at Frontier to the Future, but perhaps I just got lucky.



Maybe I should have listened to him.



Of course, people like my friend Annie will tell me that everything is okay. They’ll say it’s fine that I lost to Valcone because he’s one of the best. They’ll say it’s fine that I was eliminated first because anything can happen in a battle royal. They’ll say it was probably too early for me to get a title shot anyway.



Sure. Those things are true.



But people have beaten Valcone before. Someone did win that battle royal. And I did get that title shot. So what’s the excuse?



Maybe I’m just thinking about things too much. I go out there trying to prove my point, trying to show everyone that I belong, that Rex’s first opinion was wrong. There’s plenty of time to do those things down the road, what I should be doing right now… is focusing on the match. Focusing on my technique, focusing on doing everything that I can to put on a good show, not to prove a point.



So maybe instead of focusing on proving a point or winning, or whatever else… maybe it’s time I just focused on being… #BRUTAL.



Mercy, you’re going to be the first person to see what I’m like with a clear mind. Because I’m not going to come down there with a million things running through my head. I’m not going to be worried about the people, the consequences, none of that. I’m going to be focused on one thing: you, and doing everything in my power to stop you.



You say you won’t underestimate me, and for once I actually believe that statement. Not because you believe in me or think I could beat you, because everyone underestimates me, it’s a part of the gig. But I don’t think you’re going to underestimate me, because you need this just as much as I do. You only have one pinfall victory to your name as well, so while people might not look at you like they look at the “child,” they do look at you like you’re one loss away from the door.



So you’re going to bring that fire. You’re going to lay it all on the table. And I’ll be ready for it, because I’ve tasted defeat, and I don’t like it. I hope I’m right, because I’d like to really prove myself in a match that’s worthy of the LDFC crowd.



Maybe I did rush into things.



But maybe I didn’t.

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